As I began writing my last memoir, I was thinking over and over before and after ‘going cosmic’ about which perspective to write it from.
One thing for sure is that it definitely wasn’t ‘a walk in the park’ especially when I had other commitments such as recording people, rehearsing and performing all in one day.
I really did want to write as much as I was able to during lockdown when I had lots of time to think and reflect on matters based on my own past, present and future self.
I’m well known... especially by those close to me...for never completely finishing things and leaving them half baked so even though I still have to get these memoirs published... at least I have made it this far!
365 days of whining, moaning, complaining, ranting, over analysing things and there were even a few times when I had something positive and spiritually enlightening to say.
I do confess that I had already had some practice before these memoirs and it all began somewhere.
From what I recall, I decided to go full time with busking in 2018 thanks to Jenifer (Divine)’s encouragement and tactics to get me out of my failed post anti-depressant phase!
At least that’s what it states on the some form of laminated reminder I still have on my bedroom wall….because that is when I started recording my income per month….
Perhaps this could also be the time I started writing about my busking experience per day via the inbuilt NOTES app on my phone and then I posted them onto Instagram which is connected to my Facebook music page and Twitter account.
I wanted to figure out a way to keep my audience engaged daily and after some thorough research and suggestions from followers... busking journals became a thing!
At nearly 2pm today…. I am over analysing again!
Should I have written the above for the introduction or for the conclusion to these memoirs?
One thing for sure is that I have ‘dived into the deep end’ but I’ve always had faith in finding out things the hard way, taking risks, and generally… wingin’ it.
The way I write, record, produce and perform my music and other people’s music is the same.
I can’t think of a label for that one.
Perhaps I’m just a creative woman every second of the day, month and year…..or should I start adopting the term ‘avant garde‘ instead?
I’m also very glad and feeling blessed that I’m still alive and kicking to have finished these memoirs too in regards to how fragile and unpredictable life is especially with another variant of the coronavirus floating around and two friends of mine are currently experiencing it personally!
I hope they get out scot-free and it’s a good thing that they’re still young and healthy.
I may not have gotten a record deal or toured the UK or even the world yet…. but thanks to meeting the ever pro-active and fearless Ant…we are definitely one step closer!
He has a lot of faith in this project and knows how to verbally express things better than I could ever do so he’s another big blessing to have encountered during the past year….
Let’s hope I don’t mess things up with him like I have with others due to not being able to control my own feelings ….especially situations are best handled with reasoning instead!
And let’s not forget about all the other people in my life too ….the friends, family, fans, followers, flatmates and even those that are just passing by!
I shall emotionally end this years memoir with a very important and spiritual message I discovered in Thailand….
“What you do today...prepares you for tomorrow“
Miss Waritsara ‘Yui’ Karlberg aka Ethereal