ASCENSION OF THE ETHEREAL #120

ASCENSION OF THE ETHEREAL #120 

I was sweating like a pigeon as I made it on to the New Milton train in my casual winter outfit consisting of the usual comfortable but boring concoction of family friendly sheaths. 

Before that, I had only had an hour to work out how I will travel today as my first official day as my new potential ‘stage’ name ‘Hack Girl & The Extreme Melancholy’. 

I decided upon stuffing my acoustic guitar case with the following: 

small amp which contains built in batteries and blue tooth 
Mic stand and the essentials 
Camping chair that’s falling apart slowly 
My iPad and the holder for it that attaches on to the mic stand 
AC/DC power pack to keep my phone (whilst live streaming) and my iPad (used for the backing tracks and reading the lyrics) charged.... 
And then of course, the small tripod stand for my phone AND my handbag to keep all other necessities in. 

SIMPLES! 

However, the question has arisen .....I’m half way now to saving up for the portable P.A system ....but do I really need it? 

When I was doing my own songs....I thought it would be a great idea but now that I am only going to be doing karaoke songs twice a month (until further notice) ....is there really much point? 

Maybe I should just keep saving until I am able to save up £1k and then get out of this place and back to Thailand?! 

Hmmm....nah....I have way to many spiritual commitments here. 

“You can actually sing” a lady said to me as I was packing up and she was donating some love. 

I then asked her if there is anybody else who sings around here and then she told me that there is a girl (actually she said ‘guy’ but I was able to ignore that) and a guitar who sings here. “She’s terrible” she said. 

It clicked that the person she was referring to was me when I was playing my originals and she had even got the impression that I was trying to hard to get money from doing so. 

I was really happy when she said that I can actually sing but when I realised that she was referring to what I was doing before it made me feel quite upset. 

I then did a quick chant facing my guitar case to find my centre again. 

Regular Joe then asked me if I am religious and I told him obviously that I’m Buddhist. 

He giggled and then that encouraged me to ask him if he’s religious and because it’s always a challenge to hear him speak because I assume he had a stroke ....I didn’t quite get his answer 

Before that happened, there was a senior lady passing by and she said “oh you can’t do that…begging is against the law” and thus, me being me .....I stood up for myself and went on all simian verbally on her naive self in a socially distanced manner! 

Okay let’s rewind a bit shall me? 

As usual, regular Joe was watching me today and listening to me singing pretty much most of the songs that he doesn’t know but I didn’t bother me earned at some point he gave me a £20 note which was very very kind of him. 

Before he did that, a lady whom had noticed me before... requested ‘Jungle’ by Tash Sultana as that was her daughters favourite song before she got swept out at sea and drowned and her poor mother didn’t know anything about this until three or four months later. 

As I was singing that song, I was trying my best not to burst into tears from what she had just told me. 

I don’t know why but that encouraged me to tell her about something similar that happened to me when I was little whilst on holiday in Indonesia when I was walking along the beach with my mum holding her hand and then suddenly, a tide swept me away into the sea and then I was returned back to my mum. 

I am glad I’m still alive to tell this tale and I’ll never forget my mum telling me this! 

And bless her soul for donating a £10 note and taking one of my cards and videoing me! 

I had no idea that the combination of those compliments and criticisms would affect the rest of my day until I got back home and not only did I get new bedsheets that my stepdad had kindly bought me, but I had also received a letter about my personal independence payment appeal. 

I then tried to encourage myself not to get upset with the results or get upset that I wasn’t too keen on the burger that I had made for lunch. 

At least I have some some satsumas and fruit loaf to keep me satisfied before I decided what to make for dinner. 

Just because I want to end this on a good note.... 

I felt like I had actually done everything ‘the right way’ today! 

EARNINGS: £55.21 from karaoke singing (not calling it busking!) + £47.21 from live streaming my originals = £102.42!!!

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    Sometimes, there are results of our actions which are not in favor with how we visualized it to happen. Of course, I know and I can imagine how frustrated you were, but it already happened. You can be upset at the moment, but you need to stand up and move on to the next chapter of your life. As an asussie writer , there are so many things I have learned in life, and I have to say that everything wouldn't be possible if I didn't have such perspective.

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